success is a weird blessing. on one hand you know you should be thankful and happy; your dreams are coming true. but on the other hand you cant help but be afraid. afraid of losing what you have. you finally have it and don’t want to lose it. how do you not let it go?
i’ve been unusually lucky where i continually find myself in situations where i ask myself “how did i get here?” i never try to answer the question but continue on towards new goals and ambitions. lately i’ve been wondering if i’ve disconnected myself too much from life. from feeling. i’ve been so lucky to experience so many things, but through all of it i’ve forced myself to keep my head down, to not think about any of it, and continuing fighting towards the next goal. but if i just keep doing that will i ever be happy?
how can i be happy if i greet every success with another challenge? your entire life people teach you what to do in the face of adversity; how to beat the challenge and keep fighting towards your goals. but what do you do once you reach them? nobody ever teaches you that. are these questions meaningless? will anybody even read this? will i be judged for possibly seeming ungrateful for what i’ve achieved? i dont care.
my entire life all i’ve wanted to do is write songs. i’ve never cared about gimmicks or acts, just about music. over the past year or two i’ve grown to appreciate the art of releasing music and the world you can create around yourself as an artist, but at the end of the day all that matters to me is the song. the production. what makes a track unique? we’ve been overwhelmingly lucky the past few weeks to have conversations with some pretty influential people and one thing we keep coming back to is the idea of taste and contrast.
jose and i are incredibly lucky. we’ve been able to grow and challenge eachother as writers for 9 years now and we compliment one another incredibly. we have very similar tastes, influences, and ideas and we are always able to rely on the other if we can never think of anything to say or write. so here we are.
we’re writing our next record, and we’re starting to write for pitch for other artists. fortunately we’ve already been able to turn some heads and have had some very humbling experiences, but there’s one thing i want to express in this post. it’s what we’re chasing.
we can write a song for somebody else in roughly 4-6 hrs, easy, and it will be a pretty decent song. we’ll be happy with it, odds are whoever we’re writing for will be happy with it, but there’s something more we’re after when we’re writing for ourselves.
there’s a moment in a song that everybody can identify with but is hard to put your finger on. its a moment where the music, the melody, and the lyric all combine to make something in your brain explode with emotion. for the two of us we feel that moment immediately when it happens. we’ll know we’ve created something bigger than ourselves. we won’t release a song until we’ve felt that with it and that’s a promise we will never let go of both for ourselves and for you all. we want to be the best and we’ll do our best to get there.
right now i have a “to do list” of about 16 songs that we have to finish in the next three weeks. some of them are for us (a little less than half admittedly) and some of them are songs we’re just as excited about but for other people. its incredibly refreshing and inspiring to get to step outside of our comfort zones everyday and write melodies or lyrics that we wouldn’t normally get to.
i love where i am so much right now and cannot wait for where things are heading. i know we say this a lot, but really. stick with this. things might seem dark for a bit, but i promise things are only getting bigger and better.
modern memoirs was a small introduction to where things are heading. we have a long ride ahead of us and i hope you’ll all stick with us through it all.
BTW sorry for the lack of updates recently, we’ve been insanely busy and fortunately/unfortunately it doesn’t look like its slowing down anytime soon. if it does i’ll do another update. for now, i hope you’re great. i miss you
[listen] most of the albums i’ve purchased over the past couple of years
bought myself a little early birthday present. big thanks to @thesocialstatus for hooking it up
Happy Mother’s Day to my beautiful, awe-inspiring mom! Hands down the sweetest and most hardworking person I will ever know, she makes me want to be a better person every day. She also thinks she’s hilarious but…I love her anyways! :) Really wish I could be with her today